I had been invited by Professor Sufen Song of Sun Yat-Sen University to give a talk about “Feminine Pornography as Art of Failure” and to hold a workshop with “Boys’ Love” fans or women who indulge in and write gay erotic animation and fiction. The talk garnered unusually rich and open-minded feedback from students. The workshop was well attended and yje students really came alive during the second half, where they were asked to imagine a short story about gay couple in Berlin, an older Belgian professor Moenen (named after the devil in Marieke Van Nijmeghen) who meets and falls in love with the much younger and beautiful student Fritz.
The Guanzhou imagination ran wild as students came up with about six to seven detailed story versions of this relationship. One student (who will remain anonymous) recited her story in loud prose and was not shy to use the f*** word. And several days later that very story got stuck in my mind, so I summarize it here for you:
Professor Moenen is very old-fashioned and strict, the kind of person who takes care of his own household. Between the two world wars he visits Berlin. a wet and dark city, and ends up in a bar called Neo, filled with strictly gay men. They are the kind who drink their coffees while talking about Plato. When Moenen runs into the gorgeous Fritz, he falls for him quickly and does all the things Fritz tells him to do.
Fritz fucks professor Moenen very hard. But Moenen does not scream or shout it loud. Fritz wants him to say “Fuck me harder!” but he does not shout. Fritz soon is tired of the old dog who just follows him around. In the end he dumps old Moenen who also ends up being forgotten by history.
It is only when Fritz himself become Professor many years later, that he misses the old men.
Perhaps these young Chinese women like to pester high-brow masculinity and deprive it of a voice. As they explained afterwards, they like to eroticize vulnerability and pain alongside the details of sexual conquest. Let this be a lesson for us middle-aged academics. If at all possible, let’s follow our wildest desires and do it with younger lovers, but let our matured minds also really enjoy the sex, “to scream and shout it out loud!”